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Wednesday, February 27, 2008 @ Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Lost
Sometimes, amidst all the madness of schoolwork and homework, my mind will drift off towards the past, towards the moments in secondary school, primary school...even Basketball and Iban... those fleeting memories...seem to shuttle in and out of my mind...as I continued the senseless task of finishing all my homework...
Come to think of it, most of my blog post really speaks more of the events that I've been through, instead of the feelings that I felt. So, let this post be one of those exceptions...(since i got nothing much else to write)... It has been close to two months since I got back into school, but the reality of school life has barely sunk into my life. Everyday, as I trudged back home from yet another mentally exhaustive day in school, I will often think deeply. Of course, not those like day-dreaming kind of thoughts, but sudden images of the past will tend to flash into my mind, as if to remind me of those sane moments that would always be etched within the inner realms of my mind. Sometimes, I will tend to let those thoughts sink deeper into my mind. Sometimes, during the short 10 min trips to school and back, I will close my eyes and let my mind drift...drift away from the burdens of schoolwork and all, into the world of my own. Sometimes, even as I lie on my bed and say goodbye to another day, I would lay for an hour...sleepless...with my mind filled with all the beautiful memories that i have. Even when I'm walking along the short stretch of the road towards the side gate of my school, I tend to slow down slightly, to take in the sight of the clear blue sky...as well as the break of daylight. I really don't know why I'm saying all this, but I guess that i just want to pour my heart out today. It seems to me that in spite of all the hectic schedule that lies in wait to swallow me alive, the constant memories of the past, as well as the beautiful and heartwarming times that I had been involved in, would always serve as a catalyst: To inspire me when I'm down, to be there to cheer me up, fight away my fears, to wipe away any potential tears ...and to act as my guardian angel...to hold my hand and guide me out of the constant threat of insanity and stress... I really can't wait for all these to be over...I really can't wait to take on the A levels, I can't wait to leave TJ...all beaming and proud...to have achieved my desired results...or maybe i can't wait to get into a university? Which reminds me...I'm already 18, but the path that lies ahead of me seems so unclear and hidden with unknown adversities...the plethora of scholarships...so appealing yet so demanding... And it only serves to increase my hesitance in my ideal choice...What choice to make? What grades to attain? What lies ahead? I don't know...for the first time...i feel a little lost...Call me independent, but i don't wish to trouble anyone with my thoughts...so here i am...blogging away...releasing all the worry and troubles that I've stored in my heart... Of course, I feel much better now, but whether the feel-good effect will last, I don't know.. I notice that my post is filled with "I don't know"... On a random note, I heard that the A level results are coming at the end of this week...OMG... I'm so FREAKKKING nervous about it...not sure...a growing uneasiness seems to be gripping me... although deep in my mind, a voice will ring out : You will do well...I know you will... Let's see what the outcome is... From the song "So far away-Staind" this is my life its not what it was before all these feelings i've shared and these are my dreams that i'd never lived before somebody shake me 'cause i i must be sleeping Lost W.Q. Labels: lost |
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Saturday, February 23, 2008 @ Saturday, February 23, 2008
Quote(2)
"If you wish success in life, make
PERSEVERANCE your bosom friend, EXPERIENCE your counselor, CAUTION your elder brother, and HOPE your guardian genius." Joseph Addison Short post today...don't really know what to write...my blogging skills have temporarily deserted me...pray it comes back...haha... Mentally exhausted W.Q. Labels: quote |
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Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ Sunday, February 17, 2008
C.O.P.E.
Another weekend has drawn to a close, but my homework doesn't seem to end here...the endless struggle to complete assignments one after another...really is starting to feel the strain of the workload...the struggle continues...
Anyway, last Friday, it was one of the C.O.P.E. programmes organized by our very own TJ LEO club. the objective was supposed to be to accompany the old folks from the nearby Block 12 at TJ to the Long Beach Restaurant at East Coast Park. 3 hours were spent there...and boy, I felt so glad to see the elderly again. Hmm...I dunno why, but the last time i saw the lively crowd of elderly people were during the lightings at Orchard Road during Christmas eve. To see them again was certainly reminiscence of the good old days, as their friendly banters and good ol' spirit was never unwavering. While waiting for the food, we chatted and joked about each other(mainly the elderly). The main caretaker there- Jimmy, was the resident joker as usual...always speaking in a wide array of languages to taunt the elderly (jokingly, of course!) The elderly beside me, a 82 year old Malay man named Enjom was definitely my favourite elderly to talk to. Gosh, he was such a joy to talk to and of course mainly listen to. Despite the fact that that he spoke mostly Malay and a little bit of English, we had little problems communicating with each other. Guess it has gotta be destiny...ahaha... Hmm, the food is also both delicious and well-cooked. The delicacies ranged from the expensive Shark's Fin to the basic kang kong, from the soft flesh of the steamed promfret to the fried crunchiness of the "Kentucky" chicken...Gosh..all these desciption seemed to make me more hungry...haha.. At the end of it all, it was of course a little sad to part ways, but I was glad that the elderly did manage to enjoy themselves...with the company of the fellow LEO members. The next morning, it was another CIP-initiated programme. Decked in our colouful array of TJ clothes, we gathered at Simei MRT station. We were supposed to go to Orange Valley Nursing Home, which was situated next to Changi General Hospital. This was like any other home visits, with a slight twist; as my p.d. was sick, I was tasked to take charge along with the President of LEO, Jia Yun...GOD!!!! I was so NERVOUS la...because 1) it was pretty last minute. 2) I don't know half the people going(mostly J1s and TAs) and I was to introduce the games and song...ARGHH!!! Actually, it's not like I'm afraid or what...but all the suddenness in being assigned to do all these in such a short time makes my heart pump with much needed adrenaline...and of course...heightened the tension and anxiety level... After getting into the building, the both of us got into schedule, introducing the Chinese song and of course the number game...MAN, I felt so demoralised when i saw the blank looks on the face of the elders as i attempted to speak (or rather..shout) as loud as I could- partially cos several of the elderly had difficulty in hearing, aka hearing impaired. Luckily, with the silent encouragement of the fellow LEO members and of course my own determination...I got through the initial "stage-fright". Very soon, I was engaging the elderly with slight confidence....and with the aid of a mike kindly given by the lady-incharge, I managed to get throught the entire 2 hours of games, song and some brief introduction of New Year's resolutions...We even got to go up to feed the elderly(as it was their lunch time). Basically, I learnt quite a bit on Communication in CHINESE...something which i had barely done so for the past couple of months... Hmm...let's just say that the home visit was a personal success for me! Gosh...back to my homework....or should I slack a little while...haiz...the temptations of the Internet... :P Labels: C.O.P.E. |
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Thursday, February 14, 2008 @ Thursday, February 14, 2008
Cookies
This week has been such a busy one for me....with so much homework and tests to handle...yet i still find time to rest, relax...and of course BLOG!
Just 2 days ago, I got my chance to bake some cookies! Yeah! Basically, it was just to raise funds for Delta H.C., and we had to find things to sell. For all those who went for the Tao Nan Camp that time, did you ever try those yummy coffee, cinnamon cookies that my family made? Haha! That's right! Together with my mum and sis, I spent several hours stuck in the kitchen taking out trays of baked cookies and sprinkling snow powder onto half the cookie...heart-shaped cookies... Y-U-M-M-Y!!! The aromatic smell and the crunchy feeling was wonderful, and when the bittersweet taste melts in the mouth...it simply is heavenly!!! Haha...I'm not trying to boast about the cookie...but I know what food taste nice, and the cookies are definitely beyond my expectations! :D Today, Valentine's Day and International Day coincided together...which was also dress-down day in my school. It was also the day when I presented the homemade cookies...to be sold to the school community. Today also happened to be my Econs test and gosh, there were simply too many things in my mind. Together with all the well-wishes that I received throughout the day, I was simply kept on my toes as I rushed from one place to another...from classrooms to lecture halls...from homework to Econs test to selling cookies... By 5'oclock, it was all over... and guess what? I sold ALL my COOKIES!!! YEAH!!! I managed to raise about $60 for the cookies!!! WHEE! So much for the hard work, lack of sleep and of course...the dedication! To all readers out there: Happy Valentine's Day! And to all singles out there: Cheer up man! Be proud of who you are! I wish u guys "Happy Singles Awareness Day"! Labels: Cookies |
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Sunday, February 10, 2008 @ Sunday, February 10, 2008
Burned!
Hmm...a pretty short post for today...cos i doubt i will update this blog for quite a while...
Today, I went to the temple near Paya Lebar. Hmm, it was something like returning Tai Sui at "Lorong Koo Chye Sheng Hong Temple Association" or something...Well, basically, the year of the rat this year spells not-so-good times for all Horse people. So, in order to pray for peace and safety, I was bundled out of the comforts of home and taken to the sweltering heat of incense smoke and huge crowds of devotees. 3 hours of waiting for a long, long, long queue.(I mean it! Like a few hundred people long) :( Sweating like crazy....NO FANS!!! :( Skipped my lunch... no joke! Empty stomachs don't make me a happy person... Worse of all...halfway through the process...I was "poked" by a burning joss stick! ARGHH!!! Well...I was placing my joss sticks into the urn...and then there was this girl around ten years old who appeared out of nowhere...actually, i saw her joss stick before i saw her...then the intense pain of a burning needle jabbed into the side of my left arm...WAHHH!!! I nearly want to scream la...but god knows why I didn't...in the end...the girl just gave me that innocent look...placed the joss sticks hurriedly and left...I was stunned for a moment...before I realized that a gradual swell was appearing on my arm... Right now, I can see a black dot the size of needlehead on my arm...still hurting la.... Basically, I was pretty fed-up throughout the rest of the trip...but was momentarily cheered up by KFC...guess yummy food still wins the deal huh? UPDATED blogskin le! Pls inform me through cbox if there is any problems...will REALLY appreciate it! Labels: burned |
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Saturday, February 9, 2008 @ Saturday, February 09, 2008
CNY!
Ba Kwa, Pineapple tarts, mahjong, bridge and gatherings....that's to sum up my entire weekend so far! =P
Real tired today, after 2 consecutive days of reaching home at around 12am. and 5 a.m respectively...gosh...together with the onset of so much homework...it really makes CNY such a tiresome affair...guess next year i can virtually skip the entire process...so much for NS... Day 1: Went to my grandparents' house ... gosh....there were like half my relatives there, and of course there were the hongbaos... and the food... One after another...I certainly won't be surprised if i gained 3 kilos that night..Even went to a temple to pray after that...Another one of the social visits...It's not that i dun like going to my grandparents' place, but sometimes, it pains me to see the gradual weakening condition of my grandparents...haiz...if i could turn back time...Anyway, I also went to my eldest aunt's house to visit...ended up playing bridge till 12 with my cousins there...and of course sample those heavenly delights! Ok...that sounded rather incoherent...if u hadn't know, I was actually triple-tasking...Going to facebook...mass conversation with my 4R classmates...and of course blogging. Anyway, back to day 2... Hmm, this day is no less busy, I went to my cousin's house- for more bridge and movie watching! Hmm...basically, it was like bridge...then rest...then monopoly...then bridge....then rest...then bridge...then dinner...then movie watching. Mr Bean's Holiday was quite a yawn, although certain scenes were pretty funny. Gosh...I don't really know what happened then...it was like 1 a.m. by then...but i knew that i was woken up around 4 and got dragged out into a taxi before ending up in the comforts of my bed. Well, basically, i slacked the entire weekend away! Oh man! Now I'm so toast for my homework! ARGHH!!! Wish the holidays were longer.... The only joy was that i FINALLY got a blogskin!!! YIPPEE!!! Hmm, not sure how everyone finds my blog...but it's not a bad shot...considering it was done in my cousin's house yesterday amid all those madness of bridge and TV...special thanks to Geraldine for teaching me how to use blogskin ....LOL...Thank You! Haiz...got to go temple early in the morning tomorrow...and also study for Bio Spa... Someone give me a break... T.T Labels: CNY |
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Wednesday, February 6, 2008 @ Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Running
It's the morning of Chinese New Year! Yeah! Technically, I'm 18 years old le...but for tomorrow (the second day of CNY), I will be 19! HAHA! Look like i gotta celebrate another birthday... :P
Anyway, two days ago, I was pretty emo...not sure why...just felt quite unhappy... Hmm...guess it's one of those "off" days... Man...to all Delta H.C. members...I'm so sorry for my attitude...SORRY! Guess I shouldn't be looking so moody during the meeting....really felt bad about it thinking about it now...Even now...as i tried to think of why i felt so emo...I couldn't find any reason...guess it must have been the fatigue of PE and about 12 hours in school... On a happier note...It was TJ's very own Road Run today! Haha...everyone was decked out in their PE gear....and after morning assembly, everyone headed out to the Sports Complex to prepare for the run. All House Comm members began to tie up the banners and brought along pails and cheer sheets...the Inter House event has just begun... Decked in my Delta PE outfit, I was all-set for the long run....Haha...actually...it was just 5.2 km...but its still FAR man! Ok... admittedly, the distance wasn't the fearful thing to me...rather, it was the huge number of competitors taking part that make me break out into a cold sweat just minutes before the start of the male category. I was dam nervous...all that adrenaline pumping anticipation gathered into one tense moment. When the flag was brought down, everyone began running, and so did I. Guess the "Drink 200ml of water 30 min before the race" and "Do more stretching" tips did the trick... Admittedly, I did not even put in a single bit of training for the run, yet I felt pretty good when I ran the route... As there were 2 uphill points in the run, I was still feeling OK when i went past the 2nd uphill point. About 1-2km before the end, my legs starting giving way... "Just go on...just go on..." I closed my eyes for a while and when I opened, I focused my attention on my nearest runner. My tactic: Use the runner as my pacer...and when I gain enough momentum...I will overtake him to go on to the next runner... Hmm...that did the trick and about 200 m before the finishing line, I began sprinting...1...2....3....I tried for the 4th...but i couldn't get past him...At least I did manage to overtake 3 more people at the last minute... Got a lowly 133th position...but guess I should be lucky...there were at least 300 runners and only the top 150 would be given a card(signify one's ranking...lol). After a brief moment of resting and panting, I changed to my white H.C. T-shirt and began to join my fellow Delta H.C. members in leading our group's cheer...admittedly...Delta seemed like the smallest in proportion... yet...we WON the CHEERING competition! YEAH! Kudos to them...Though we didn't win Overall champions, I believed that everyone was a winner....well...I mean for all those who at least completed the race... :P Just 4 hours ago, I had my REUNION dinner! Steamboat! Teriayki Barbecue! Desert after that! Well, that sums up my yummy meal...I'm like full beyond full...but nothing like a good meal makes me HAPPY! YEAH MAN!!! On a random note...I've exceeded 200 songs in my imeem le!!!!!!!!! YEEEHA!!! LOL... Recommend me any good songs k? Last but not least...HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! May U be flooded with Hongbaos!!! And of course to all u readers out there, wishing u guys a prosperous, successful and fruitful new year! Basically, may all good things go your way and be HAPPY and HEALTHY always!!! Cheers W.Q. |
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Friday, February 1, 2008 @ Friday, February 01, 2008
Touched
After 15 hours straight in school today...I'm now super-ultra burned out...Yet, I'm writing this entry...well... to thank the many people...who have made an impact in my life...in one way or another..
Last Monday...I finally turned eighteen... It's such a sweet number....and together with the many new things i can do with the magic number, it's certainly a day to remember. Buying and drinking alcohol, obtaining a driving license, entering pubs...the restrictions are certainly less imposed than before...Yet, as i celebrate another turning point in my life, I don't feel smug about it and gloat about it...Instead, I feel a deep sense of sadness...that finally, I'm starting on the path towards adulthood... and away from the simplicity and joy of childhood and teenage life. Gosh, all those days of playing basketball daily, slacking in classes, even phototaking with my class during photoshoot (as i glanced at the pictures of my classmates on my study wall)....all these moments will soon come to an end... Guess all good things DO come to an end... Anyway, on a happier note, Monday was certainly a day not to forget...Never in my life had i receive so many smses of well-wishes(25 smses!) Ok...that may not seem a lot to some...but personally...I'm touched with the response and would sincerely THANK EVERYONE for wishing me in one way or another...be it sms, just saying "Happy Birthday!" or even calling me...I really APPRECIATE it...Thanks! As for Thursday, Switchfoot came to TJ! OMG...I mean...U don't get to see a live band in school everyday....only thing is...J2s aren't excused to watch the band! ARGHH!!! I ended up sneaking off to the audi with a few classmates to watch the bands...ended up watching only half and hour of some local band playing some pretty cool music...before i got bundled out of the audi...never got a chance to watch the band in action. :( Today was CNY carnival! Picture scenes of red festivities and red banners and red decorations.. which matches the red running tracks of TJ and the red tentage...haha....problem is...just 2 hours before the start of the carnival...it got to RAIN.... The approximately $3,000 spent on tentage was literally gone to waste...and the wet weather plan nearly got screwed up...all no thanks to the awful wet weather. Nevertheless, the united and coordinated effort by our fellow H.C. mates managed to save the day! Kudos to them! Anyway, the highlight of the entire programme was the dunking station, where we got to see our favourite teachers get....what else...DUNKED! To see Mr. Ivan Lim, Mr. Daniel Ng, and Miss Aileen Wong kena dunked was an eye-opener...(partially because i got them to participate...*wink)...to see our DM Mr. Francis Tong kena dunked was the icing on the cake. HAHA! Actually, there was some drama to that scene, whereby apparently, his son, whom I believe was no older than 6, wanted to get dunked with him. OMG! I mean, it was certainly a nerve-wrecking sight to be seated with like half the TJ cohort staring at you, and waiting for the-lucky-fellow's-toss-to-hit-the-target-which-will-send-the-plank- holding-the-weight-of-the-unlucky-person-crashing-into-the-icy- cold-water experience...that was certainly no easy feat! But well, they got dunked in the end and everyone got their share of the laughter and cheering. Apart from the 2 hour clean-up, which nearly broke every bone in my body...i guessed I'm rather happy to be back in the comforts of home.. Today's birthday card from Melissa, Dennis and Cheng Ying was certainly the sweetest thing I've received for that day! THANK YOU!!! ;P Chinese New Year in 6 days...Road Run in 5 days...4 day holiday in less than a week...I can't WAIT! :D Fatigue W.Q. |
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