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Monday, March 17, 2008 @ Monday, March 17, 2008
Visions
Back! Haha, wow, that was such a long period of absence! Well, Guess it had something to do with getting over with the disappointment of A levels.......NO LA, JOKING! Well, the March holidays had been filled with studying for March Common Test (MCT), as well as (attempting to) complete all the holiday assignments given. So much for holidays... :(
Anyway, I've gotta stop being so depressing, it really affects people sometimes. Like the time I got my Chinese A levels. Ok la, enough le! Sometimes it's such an irony that when we look forward to all the happy things in life, but in our quest to achieve it, all the misery often gets into the way. Haha, felt ironical to me anyway. To cheer things up a little, my school did particularly well for the A levels, that today, we got half day off! Haha! Such consolation, considering the fact that today is such a long day, and it happens to be the first day of school! However, our school didn't do that well for GP, with only an 11.8% GP distinction for the senior batch! haiz, just hope I can get the A too! Yeah, also, there's gotta be another holiday this friday! Oh yeah! Sometimes, it really is lucky for me to be living in Singapore, as we get to enjoy all the holidays that are reserved to all the various different races and religion. Haha, just the thought of a 3 day holiday makes me feel so happy! Haha, guess it's necessary to make up for the lack of holidays during the March holidays. Just a little randomness from me, recently, I've been having those weird dreams during my sleep, not sure if it's due to the stress earlier during the week, or a premonition of something to happen. I don't know, sometimes it would be my friends with me, sometimes it was my family, but there was one dream involving my Chem teacher as well! Omg, but the settings seems so familiar though i couldn't quite figure out where it is yet. At one point, I even dreamt myself with another unknown person running away from a man who was wiping out everyone around the building using his finger. Makes me think of Sylar of the show Heroes. Haha, maybe it's just me, but these visions are so vivid that i will wake up feeling the shudders. Personally, some of my visions had been those of the future. For instance, just recently, i dreamt that i was taking the MCT at the left side of the Audi, and guess what, it happened at the exact spot. Well, I didn't really realized it until halfway through the paper, when i looked up to stretch my neck, and suddenly, i realized my dream flashing back to me. Man, that got me stoning for about a minute, before the realization of what little time i had left hit me and got me back to my questions. Hmm, I've been typing for quite a while and there's no title being formulated in my head. Well, so much for visions when i can't even think of what to write now. Just to note, everytime i blog, i try to think of what titles to write and what poems to add. Guess it's the spirit of creativity, or the creator-wannabe in me. So this is a little poem i compose, haha! The freedom I envision, is all but just a vision. Computers and television, are the only means of provision. Haha! Poet amateur at work! Will write something more interesting than all these randomness. Yeah, wait till i get that new phone of mine(*wink) ;P W.Q. Labels: visions |
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Sunday, March 9, 2008 @ Sunday, March 09, 2008
Blue
Staring into the starry night,
Wishing that I found the might. With darkness and the twinkling light, Oh! What a beautiful sight! Crap...that was a lousy attempt in writing a poem, but hey, I was just trying to describe how I felt as I sat on the rocky shores along the coast of the sea, looking out into the endless night, with the waves beckoning for me to stay, and the stars with their glimmer of hope. Yet, all i felt was disappointment and anguish at that very moment, as I recalled those moments earlier that day. Just 7 hours ago, I was pedalling my bike towards school. It was gonna be a special day that day, and I was feeling all nervous and excited. With my mind filled with the captain's ball competition and the LEO outing later that day, I was also worried about the Chinese A level results. It was really the moment of truth, and it kind of reminded me of the same scenario just 2 years back. At that time, it was the announcement of the Chinese O level results, and I was both bewildered and lost for words, as trembling hands received the pink slip of paper, with my eyes staring at that very letter: A. 2 years later, the scenario was unfolding like that of the past, and as I saw the familiar outline of my school, I pedalled harder. Nothing could ever go wrong, could it? Smiling, my confidence grew as I approached my school, my result, my outcome. Yet, it was not to be. From the moment the teacher mouthed the word "B", all my hopes crashed to the ground. Like a man whose last move was thwarted in a game of chess, I was speechless with the outcome. Even though I quickly regained my composure and congratulated those who got their deserving As.. Deep in my mind, I felt lost and sore. The day passed by quickly, and by the time I was reminded about my results again, it was at night, during the LEO BBQ. Excusing myself from the bbq, I made my way towards the familiar rocky ledge and sat there. After a while, I lied down on it and faced the starry night. At that very moment, all those memories came rushing back into the mind. All the expectations I had piled on myself felt heavier with each passing thought, and I simply remained where I was, wishing that all the disappointment would just disappear... I only felt better today, thus giving me the strength to write all these. I know that the outcome seems pretty ok for most people, i guess. But I'm sure that everyone has their own expectations.. and that feeling if not making the cut will just leave a sour taste in my mouth. I hate to admit, but i really HOPE that i can get over it ASAP, for time waits for no man. March Common Tests (MCT) for Bio and Chem this Friday, and next terms gonna be much more busier... I pray for strength and willpower, with a little bit of luck, to get me though the entire year. Pain keeps me alive... keeps me going on with life...with pain I FIGHT on! Undaunted, W.Q. Labels: blue |
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Wednesday, March 5, 2008 @ Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Cabbage!
Yay! Finally got time to blog...I'm currently enjoying a one hour break...haha...I'm really tired with all the juggling of blogging, emailing, PDPing, and catching up with my homework...but hey! It wouldn't hurt to have a little break! Yeah! =P
So you guys must be wondering what's with the weird title name...AHAHA! Hmm...it's pretty simple actually... as part of Delta House Committee's house function, we decided to hold a captain's ball competition! Before the finals are played, there will be a slight twist.. that is, we're gonna use cabbage as the ball! ROFL!!! So the initial surprise is over...but hey...yesterday some of the Delta H.C. people had some fun trying out the game itself. As the netball court was too small, we ended up playing a weird combination of touch rugby and catain's ball...Boy, it was super fun man! The moment the cabbage mislanded or was thrown with great strength and height, it would "explode" literally, with bits of cabbage leaves sprewn all over the area. Hmm, that should not be the worst of it all, as we ended up smelling like the vegetable itself. I seriously cannot imagine all the hilarity of the finals, which will be held this Friday. Man, I can't wait... :P Ok...a little of some school updates and stuff. A LEVELS RESULTS IN 2 DAYS! ARGHH!!! I'm SO NERVOUS LA.... really am scared of the outcome....well...there are some who believed tat I can do it (*wink)...but still, I'm really edgy....thinking of it alone makes me shiver...well...let me a little optimistic...All the best for those who are taking their results too this friday! ALL THE BEST!!! Besides the release of the results and the Captain's ball competition...theres also the LEo outing! YEAH!! HAHA...Hmm...actually, i'm contemplating on skipping it altogether as I need my beauty rest and sleep...but 1) it's at East Coast and 2) it's in the evening....Best of all...I may get to cycle there too! Hmm...all the elements of a fun outing...hopefully... :P On a random note, this is my 50th post! HAHA! Not bad for someone who's pretty busy... Will blog more about the evnts that are unravelling before me in a couple of days... "When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing, then we truly live life" -Greg Anderson Anticipation, W.Q. Labels: cabbage |
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