Sunday, July 27, 2008 @ Sunday, July 27, 2008
Silver!
Omg, i really haven't blogged for ages. Felt like years since i began typing like this. As I'm typing away, all the past memories of blogging came flashing into my mind. I know this really sounds uninteresting, but the very thought that is ringing in my mind now is the reason why i started blogging. Yeah, dun ask me what's that reason, u got to find out urself! ;P

But anyway, since my blog is as good as dead (since i didn't update and no one came to visit), i might as well type a short post today. :/

Hmm, got myself that long-awaited silver for Nafa yesterday! Hooray! Haha, i supposed that was the only cheer in an otherwise mundane and miserable week for me. I really don't know why, but obtaining that silver did not really come as a happy thing to me. Although the matter of going NS later should bring some cheer, but i still felt a slight sorrow at it.

Pardon my English, or my crappiness, perhaps it's just the lack of sleep, but i'm seriously feeling sad. No, not that depressed type of sad. I should say that sadness takes on a whole new definition for me. I don't even want to type down all the miserable things that occurred to me, cos i don't want it to affect the people who i know and treasure most.

Ok, why am i even typing now? I could have been at my table studying. My whole life has been slacking away, either at games or outings, but seldom at the study table. Even at the table, i lacked full focus and often let my mind wander off. Could it be that my lack of focus and motivation is causing all these misery? Or could it be that watching all those around me feeling stressed over their exams be the cause? I really don't know myself.

Btw, sorry for not being able to go for the BBQ, Ibannies. I guess it's my loss for not being there huh? Don't worry, my leg is healing pretty ok. It should recover by the end of the weekend. Another reason to smile? I don't know...

Man, I'm starting to feel really disillusioned over my work. So many expectations, so little time. Everyone is studying so hard, in TJ and elsewhere, but here i am, typing away like i've got all the time in the world.

Yites, I'm really sorry for all those who are reading right now. I know I'm not the type who is that pessimistic (or am i?), so please don't let my mood dampen your spirits. Hey, National day is coming soon! 4 day break man! Haha, a good reason to smile huh?

Man, i really suck at hiding my feelings.

Never mind me, for all you guys out there, don't be disheartened or demoralized by the obstacles that lie in your way. Don't become the next me. Be optimistic, work hard and muster the courage to succeed. Yeah, as a friend, this is all the encouragement i can give; all else lies in your mind. Mind over body!

Maybe it's time i should go read my previous post.
I'm gonna be that eagle!

Learning my mistakes,
Focus! For God's sake!
Time to stay awake,
The "A"s are mine to take!

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